I wanted to share two revelations God has given me this week:
1. I don’t enjoy clothes shopping any more.
It hit me when I popped into Myer the other day and as I gazed at rack upon rack of dresses, tops, pants and all the odd apparently fashionable bits in between. I felt almost nothing. Empty if anything – as if just looking at it all was somehow eating away at my soul. It was all so…small.
I think on one level I have felt this for a long time. But I truly feel like something’s changed since the days of window shopping every other lunch break in Pitt St Mall.
And this is a good feeling. My soul yearns for bigger things.
2. I can wake up early & exercise … And get fit!
Over the last four or five weeks (since the training with work) by Gods grace He has helped me to start getting up early and going walking a few mornings a week.
This has been strengthening and encouraging for me in so many ways – feeling healthier physically and emotionally, but also realizing that getting fitter is possible even for me. Sounds obvious but I don’t think my level of fitness has changed much since I stopped playing hockey and netball over a decade ago.
I’m not going to lie to you, until the moment when I hit the footpath, most of me wishes I could just hop back under the covers.
And oh the sunrises… what a gorgeous reward from God for being up and about. The drizzling rain was less fun but still a reminder of God’s presence.
I think God is continuing to show me that in Him, I am capable – of the small things and big things that He has placed me on this earth for. Is my heart open to all He has in store? I hope so.
And as for the clothes shopping, I’m sure I’ll still do it when I need to but there is great joy in knowing that God is transforming me so that my heart and soul mind longs for more. Deeper, bigger, purposeful, truthful, world-changing things.